Mammogram And Scanxiety? Yup, That’s My Birthday Gift

Scanxiety. Scanxiety. Until you have had something show up on a scan, you will have no idea how bad this is. Here I sit in the the waiting room of St. Clare's Mercy Hospital on my 39th Birthday, shaking uncontrollably. I hear my name called and she leads me to the same room that they... Continue Reading →


And Yet I Smile

It's official...I am officially divorced. It seems that most of the unpleasant chapters in my life are coming to a close. Is that a good thing? Absolutely! But why does this make me feel sad? I should be celebrating, not feeling sad. I went to pick up my certificate of divorce at family court with... Continue Reading →

Slap The Letter “C” On Our Chests and Toss Us To An Island Like Alcatrazย 

So, guess what I found out today? I went to have my name legally changed at motor vehicle registration, I was told that I can no longer be an organ donor. I can't be a donor? Why? Who gets turned down to be an organ donor? people who have been privileged to be diagnosed with... Continue Reading →

What Life Lessons Would You Teach Your Children After Battling Cancer?

It's one in the morning and I'm laying here wide awake...thinking, as I do most nights. There are days I feel like an animal in a cage, on a wheel, my brain doesn't know how to shut down, it just keeps spinning. It may be stress or it may be that I am with children... Continue Reading →

What Cancer Thought Me

How is it possible that when you have the ones you love around you and be there for you whenever you need them you feel so alone? How is it possible to feel guilty, night after night for disciplining your children? How is it possible that you have the need to explain yourself to everyone... Continue Reading →

Happy Birthday To My Little Cancer Miracle๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ

Never in a million years did I ever imagine I would be a single mother of five children, much less a single mother of five boys. Here's a little secret, I once wished every baby I had was going to be a girl, but I was blessed with five handsome boys and I wouldn't want... Continue Reading →

Teenagers, Listen Up!

๏ปฟSometimes when I look back on some of my posts, it seems that I write a lot about doom and gloom. I feel as though the day I was diagnosed with Cancer I have had lots of luck, but bad luck, now, I have turned a lot of my bad luck into something positive. Because... Continue Reading →

Hatred VS Forgiveness

Hatred VS Forgiveness. It is so easy to accept the path of hatred, it seems to be the easiest, but is it? I often question that myself. Hatred can bring you to a very dark place and make you say and do such wrong things. I guess it's all a part of the grieving process,... Continue Reading →

What Would You Think Of Me?

What would you think of me if I said I hated my life? Would you think less of me? Would you pity me? Would you think that I am ungrateful?  What would you think of me if I said there are days I wish cancer had taken me because life is so hard? Would you... Continue Reading →

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